Gone are the days when one would try to learn from the successful. Now we have those who turn a blind eye to the solution, embrace their problems with pride, and become one with their failures.

And even if we keep ourselves away... Fate comes down and leads us astray.

Thought without action.  Life without meaning.  A lump of coal without wheels.

Pure of Heart by Bosa

     I fear boredom.  I don't know why.  It's just the way it is.  I should be happy that my two hardest classes are now over, but I instead feel empty.  I should look forward to a fun trip I've been planning this month, but I realize that once it passes (or even in the midst of it), there will be nothing but a void.

     I can't help feeling similar to Jonathan Shields in "The Bad and the Beautiful" (1952).  It has haunted me ever since I watched it two years ago for a film class.  Of course, I will never betray anyone for any means, but like Shields, once a project or goal is finished, I don't feel satisfied at all.  Instead, I feel anguish and longing - like I have just lost purpose and have suddenly been reduced to nothing.  I can be anything and do anything, but once I stop, I sink away into the shadows.

     It is not as if I pursue a goal or task because I enjoy it either.  It...[More]

It's okay because he's in a much better place now... No he's not - he's right there rotting away in front of you!

Sometimes you just want to scream, but at the same time you don't want to be heard.

Moon's Guidance (2010) by Denny Schneidemesser