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Wanting Everything

October 6th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
You may feel like you want nothing from the world... but then you realize what you actually want is just unattainable.
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Growing Up

September 14th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Sometimes you wish you didn't have to grow up.  But you do want to grow up.  You just don't want to become a different person.
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Meaning of Effect

August 19th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Meaning is nothing without effect.
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Machine with No Confidence

August 18th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Work like a machine, yet have no confidence. What good is that?
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Left Unsaid

August 15th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
So many things left unsaid... so many things written but left unread.
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What If I Can't

August 7th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Stuck in My Head | #
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Waltz of Shadows

July 31st, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Stuck in My Head | #
Waltz of Shadows by TommyUlysesGrant
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Longing

July 19th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Stuck in My Head | #
Longing by Stargenx
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Head in the Clouds

July 18th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Some watch the clouds and say they're beautiful.
Others stick their heads in and can't see a thing.
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Speak For Yourself

July 5th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Stop saying 'we' and say 'I'.  Speak for yourself before you speak for others.
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The Love of Marion

June 15th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Stuck in My Head | #
The Love of Marion - by Bosa and Hania
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Greed and Evil

June 7th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Greed is not evil.  The evil are just often greedy.
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Dreams of Flight

June 6th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
I woke in my dream and was surprised I could fly.
I woke up this morning and wondered why I couldn't.
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State of Identity

May 28th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Gone are the days when one would try to learn from the successful. Now we have those who turn a blind eye to the solution, embrace their problems with pride, and become one with their failures.
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Fate's Astray

May 26th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
And even if we keep ourselves away... Fate comes down and leads us astray.
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Coal

May 23rd, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Thought without action.  Life without meaning.  A lump of coal without wheels.
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Pure of Heart

May 18th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Stuck in My Head | #
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Void

May 10th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Essays | #
     I fear boredom.  I don't know why.  It's just the way it is.  I should be happy that my two hardest classes are now over, but I instead feel empty.  I should look forward to a fun trip I've been planning this month, but I realize that once it passes (or even in the midst of it), there will be nothing but a void.

     I can't help feeling similar to Jonathan Shields in "The Bad and the Beautiful" (1952).  It has haunted me ever since I watched it two years ago for a film class.  Of course, I will never betray anyone for any means, but like Shields, once a project or goal is finished, I don't feel satisfied at all.  Instead, I feel anguish and longing - like I have just lost purpose and have suddenly been reduced to nothing.  I can be anything and do anything, but once I stop, I sink away into the shadows.

     It is not as if I pursue a goal or task because I enjoy it either.  It...[More]
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A Better Place

May 2nd, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
It's okay because he's in a much better place now... No he's not - he's right there rotting away in front of you!
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Silent Scream

April 30th, 2011 | Posted by pftq in Thought of the Day | #
Sometimes you just want to scream, but at the same time you don't want to be heard.
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